Wednesday, July 12, 2006

For the Sake of Strangers

For the Sake of Strangers

By Dorianne Laux

No matter what the grief, its weight,
we are obliged to carry it.
We rise and gather momentum, the dull strength
that pushes us through crowds.
And then the young boy gives me directions
so avidly. A woman holds the glass door open,
waits patiently for my empty body to pass through.
All day it continues, each kindness
reaching toward another - a stranger
singing to no one as I pass on the path, trees
offering their blossoms, a child
who lifts his almond eyes and smiles.
Somehow they always find me, seem even
to be waiting, determined to keep me
from myself, from the thing that calls to me
as it must have once called to them -
this temptation to step off the edge
and fall weightless, away from the world.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

The words unspoken

I know why you cried that night, even though I felt you shouldn't have. Both you and me, we knew this was coming although it was words unspoken, and as you cried as I held you in my arms, we knew that this was inevitable. I can't love you the way you love me. You are really important to me as I am to myself and I made use of you. Initially, I thought that you needed me to take care of your wellbeing, but it was the reverse matter of factly. I played with your heart and don't deserve your forgiveness. My pride in itself is more important than you and although I know this will be my downfall, all I can hope for now is that this will help you let me go. I'm sorry.